I hate recording my voice so much! I hate it!!! Hah, well at least the silver lining is that when I am at the voice recording section it means I'm finished with the script and it's true. I'm nearly done with the Kanon video script and I'm done with the Anime TV video recording, so all that would be left is voice recording and editing, but I had a bit of an issue. The Steam Deck microphone sucks. I really should've tested this before but idk, I used it once before and it was fine sounding but I guess in context of a video format that mic is garbage. It's actually really bad, like low quality and low bitrate sounding mics can be charming, but the Steam Decks noise gate and other settings can't be tuned so it's terrible. It has really low gain so my voice pops in like a jumpscare. So I had to buy a microphone, similar to my previous Blue Snowball mic I used for literally 10 years, I bought the Blue Yeti. Just one step above the snowball.

That Snowball had a ton of issues but it was like $20 in 2014 money, so the fact it lasted as long as it did is something to be respected. I hope the Yeti is as durable as that ball was. But yeah, I should get that mic tomorrow but I won't be able to record until a week from now most likely, it's because of my recording anxiety but who knows maybe I'll just say fuck it. Since that TV anime video is so unique to me I decided to also make it in a different way, I'm going to edit the video first then write my script around my footage. I'll figure out what problems crop up from this but I'll work through it, because if I can get past the recording stage then I can make a damn video.

I fell asleep writing this but yeah, fuck it, I'm going to take some advice I heard before for Ah Lecks and record in like 7 minute segments. I'm pretty sure I can manage to do that at least. Another thing is I'm going to stand up while recording my voice so I'll have to find a way to use my closet to an advantage, I also checked and no spiders. So yeah once I figure out the logistics and get my mic then it's time to start the main event of the video. I hope these little 7 minute segments allow for me to have a natural voice when speaking because I recorded on the Steam Deck mic as a test and I sound terrible, it might be worse than my unlisted videos. It's especially crappy since the most common advice is to speak in your natural voice or the voice you use when talking with friend but, I literally don't have friends so I don't know what my casual voice is. I actually struggle to make verbal noises at work now too, so damn my voice sucks, I hope it doesn't ruin all videos I ever make. It helps to know that a lot of people struggle with this exact thing though, maybe I'll just brute force it.

So with all this I definately believe that both these videos will be out in May, and after that's done I'll work on making the big Kannazuki no Miko video. I originally intended for both these videos to be for my second channel, AzurePS2, but I don't think that's what I should do anymore. I made the second channel for the purpose of just making "low effort videos" and having my main channel be the long and "high effort" videos but now I just think that's dumb. I used to, and honestly still do have this belief that my main channel should only be filled with "watchable videos" similar to how I feel about other youtubers channels where every single video of theirs is great and so enticing to watch. But I think that kind of mentality would put unwanted stress and is going to limit my creativity. If I like the video, and it meets my standard of engaging and educational then I want to share it where people would see it. I think my second channel should genuinely be for anything I feel like making, like for example I occansionally have the urge to make AMVs or compliations of certain things. AzurePS2 should be my freak channel.

And that's the update. I'm happy with both of these videos, and I didn't realize but all I have been doing for these last few weeks is either working towards these videos or playing Tomodachi life, and my Mii's are hungry so I've been working a lot. I have a lot things I want to share, and while at work I rewatched Amelie Doree's Sex 2 video and I truly think it's the best video essay on all of Youtube. That video verbalizes my hearts feelings towards art that I cannot myself vocalize, it's like Millenium Actress in that same way. I believe there's so many kind, passionate, and curious people who are open to hearing someone elses thoughts and beliefs towards a creative work are, even if that person struggles to speak, has difficulty expressing themselves, or is unsure of themselves. I think there's a lot of people who really respect art out there, and I hope my videos can make these people learn more about some of these works that I like.

So I guess with that, my video link has to be the Sex 2 video. So here it is. The PC-98 Game with the Funniest Name (and Finding Meaning in Art)

Hey, I also want to share another video. I mentioned this one in another post before but Eddie Van Der Meer made a video where he walked from Tokyo to Osaka, and I found out he made a similar video where he did the same in Korea. I watched it while eating breakfast and it is so good, one of the best videos on Youtube. I Walked From Seoul to Busan: The Entire Length of South Korea